Family court is often portrayed as a place where children's best interests come first. In my experience, it became a years-long battle marked by procedural irregularities, repeated scrutiny of my mental health without basis, and what felt like systemic bias. What began as a petition for protection and enforcement of existing orders turned into a long ordeal that tested my resilience and left lasting emotional scars.
The Background: Establishing Custody and Early Concerns
My son's custody was initially set in Suffolk County Family Court with joint legal and physical custody orders first established on March 2011 and Modified on May 2012. On November 2018, after ongoing verbal harassment and safety concerns, I filed petitions in Kings County Family Court: one for an order of protection and another to enforce the existing custody terms. On September 2019, my son's father sought modification for sole custody.
Entering the Courtroom:
An Alarming First Encounter Before my initial conference in Part 50, I witnessed something unsettling. A visibly distraught woman exited the same conference room, arm in a cast, in tears. She warned me about the attorney-referee handling cases, alleging bias, racism, and failure to protect her from abuse. The court reporter quickly ushered me inside. This moment set a tone of unease that persisted. In March 2019, during my first appearance (self-represented at the time), I agreed to have the case heard by an attorney-referee. I detailed my fears, supported by my son's attorney at the time, who confirmed verbal attacks. Instead of addressing the abuse history which includes assault in the 3rd degree, the referee abruptly questioned my mental health without evidence and ordered both parties to drug test. I tested positive for opiates—despite never using them—possibly due to poppy seeds and gum (as the testing staff had warned). The referee advised me to get counsel immediately. A subsequent independent lab test (and voluntary PCP screens) came back negative, but the damage was done: it triggered a psychiatric evaluation and ACS (Administration for Children's Services) investigation. Both cleared me: ACS found no neglect, and the evaluator saw no mental health issues impacting my parenting.
Escalating Scrutiny and Shifting Custody:
Despite these clearances, accusations persisted. My son's attorney later claimed his pediatrician reported him "underweight" and follow-up refusal—false claims the pediatrician denied in writing. Yet, this led to a second ACS probe, another psychiatric evaluation, and a temporary order for my son to live primarily with his father (later reversed after evidence). The pattern continued: repeated mental health targeting, questions about my religion and diet unrelated to parenting, and ignored safety and abuse concerns.
Pandemic Challenges and Safety Worries:
In 2020, amid COVID-19, I sought to pause visits to protect my son's health (given vulnerabilities in the father's household). The court instead ordered alternating weeks, disrupting routines. Schoolwork suffered during his time there, but blame shifted to me. One weekend, the father left our son with relatives while traveling. The grandfather was heavily intoxicated during calls, raising alarms about supervision—especially during a power outage. Concerned for my son's safety, I requested a police wellness check and later reported to ACS. ACS noted access issues and refused drug tests by the father and grandfather. The court responded by prohibiting such reports, threatening mental health scrutiny and custody changes if I continued.
Concerns were dismissed; no inquiry with my son occurred. Ongoing Harassment and Perceived Bias. Court appearances involved intimidation from opposing counsel—yelling, glaring, personal chats with the referee post-conference—creating a hostile environment. Offers for mediation, co-parenting counseling, or apps were rejected; the stance was sole custody or nothing. Forensic psychiatric evaluations were ordered (initially only on me, later both parties), despite no evidence. Police reports were misused and framed by unanimous callers to claim I made unwarranted calls (reports didn't identify me). My attorneys sometimes hesitated to challenge bias, citing potential backlash.
The Outcome and Reflections:
The case dragged on until March 2023, when sole custody was awarded to the father—on a day I missed due to health issues. Absences by opposing counsel went unpunished, while mine were highlighted. This experience highlighted what many protective parents face: disproportionate scrutiny, ignored evidence of concern, and decisions that disrupt children's stability. It wasn't just about one case; it felt like a system where allegations against mothers are amplified, while fathers' issues minimized.
I'm sharing this not for vengeance, but to raise awareness. Family court should prioritize verifiable facts, child safety, and fairness. If you're navigating something similar, document meticulously, seek support, and know you're not alone. Reform is needed so no child—or parent—endures unnecessary trauma.
(On-going Report)
